this past 2 weeks have been a whirlwind of emotions. i started teaching, or relief teaching for now in beatty. being a teacher, relief or not, is one of the toughest jobs, if not the toughest in the world. i didnt think i would be this much impacted, if that word is appropriate. its as if the whole of me is undergoing some kind of change, what change, i have absolutely no idea. maybe when i find the right words, i'll know.

i went back to visit ms chiew, my gp teacher. she is amazing. like one of the most sincere, earnest and committed teachers i have ever met. gives 200% of her time,effort and patience to her students. so i was asking her how to handle defiant kids and basically about teaching. gave me some great tips, i believe from experience. what she said touched me, really :) thank you, ms chiew! :]

i think i got myself into more than i bargained for. noisy, restless little brats who never seem to get instructions on the first time, or second or fifth or hundredth. they make you exasperated, feel like a loser (by not listening to you), like you are about to lose your marbles and just give up. but that's the challenge right? 'nothing ventured, nothing gained' i really hope everyting falls into place, and i can enjoy this much more. i believe, like deeeeep down, (very deep down for now) i will feel very rewarded and satisfied at the end of it all.