faith

week 6.

when you feel like it's no man's land, a very liminal period in the nus calender. it is close to recess week though recess week is not a recess for us, yet there is still another 7 weeks of more intensive craziness to go through. you have mid terms, assignments due in week 10/11, finals all on your mind at the same time, in the same (small) space.

it is a liminal period because 24hours in day never seems to be enough. heck, even with 50hours, we would still say it is insufficient. because time now all of a sudden becomes a very precious commodity that you sometimes have so many things to use for you end up not doing anything productive with it at all. very strange.

it is a liminal time because you start to re-think and over-analyse why you are slogging over studying, is it all worth it, what am i to do with all this knowledge that i am learning. for a better job? to get ahead in the rat race? is it ultimately worthwhile? very confusing and totally a waste of time.

it is also the time of the semester when you got to really trust and lean hard on the provision and strength and favour and grace of Jesus. because you only have so much that studies can press out of you. it is the liminal time   when you feel really tested and shaken. whether to walk by sight or by faith. whether to get stressed and worried about things that may never come true or to rest and follow the promptings of the spirit that will always lead to peace and joy. and wisdom to help you do well in whatever you are worried about.

i want this semester to be unlike the 2 before. to be full of the fingerprints of Jesus. to filled with moments where he reminds me that i'm His beloved, that doing more doesnt mean achieving more. to go through this sem as unstressed as i can. and finally to stand victorious when the sem is over. to know that He will still be with me after all this is over.