happy shalala

hello one and all! (or just one..) coming here to clear the cobwebs haha. how has everybody been? this sem has come to an end for me, except for studying for exams, which i considered another part altogether. it has been a really restful journey for me this sem, although it didnt start out to be so. in fact, the start of the sem has been quite rough, like i hit the road running and almost fell flat on my face. but right now, i just feel so happy and excited and grateful to be where i am. looking back, this is already the end of my 3rd year, time really flies. i still rmb vividly imagining myself studying at FASS in my sec school and jc days, and at that time it seemed like such a distant goal. but being where i am now, i'm amazed and humbled at the opportunity to learn what im learning now. thank You Lord :)

this sem has also really been a continuing journey of learning to receive, listen and understand the wisdom of the Lord, as Pastor Ben has been emphasising so strongly in the past few Arrow services. it is really exciting to walk everyday and almost every moment, hearing His voice and listening to that comforting, warm and familiar voice and the sense of peace that guides me in everything that i need to do. i really experience what it means to follow the unforced rhythm of grace, and listening to my spirit, instead of being ruled by my head/logic/rational part of me. and it just confirms that wisdom is a person, the person of Jesus, and not a formula to apply. yes, there are things to do in order to grow in wisdom, but that is not because of any part of us. even the desire to want to have wisdom, is from the Lord. i thank the Lord for giving me a hunger for wisdom, to know it understand it most importantly, allowing wisdom, not my mind, to make decisions or even in understanding things that happen to me. even though im still learning to not let my personality frame my world, im getting there with Jesus as my guide.

this sem has also been about growing closer, more intimate, more trusting in DaddyGod. just as last sem has been that, this sem builds on that process. that is why i say that true Christianity is NOT about religion, it is a relationship. just as any human relationship, there is a process of initial getting to know the other person, knowing that this person loves you with a passion, giving Him your trust bit by bit, more and more, knowing this person will never ever leave you, not even for one moment. it is a relationship of letting Him do everything for you, in you and through you. it is a relationship of benefiting and soaring together in life, knowing He has nothing but good plans for you. it is not a one moment or once in a while relationship, it is everyday, in highs or in lows, throughout all your life milestones and forever. how cool and mind-blowing is that? i have so much more to say, but words fail me. all i can say is, im right now, truly happy, in a way not possible before.

im also embarking on the start of my thesis journey. although i didnt get my first choice topic, i know the Lord has open another better door for me. already, i have been so blessed being advised by this advisor i was assigned to, even though he probably doesnt know it. and so many little things i have read/heard/seen that confirm the life in me, with regards to this thesis process. so cool! even though i cant see it now, i know the end is just going to be so glorious, so out-of-this-world, that people will know it is not me, but my Lord Jesus Christ who has brought me and see me through. woohoo! :)

i already prematurely want to write a tribute for the journey i have taken hahha but i will keep that for next year when i really graduate!