hola! anyeong! sawatdii kha!

its been ages since i last dropped by. quite abit has happened, but im too lazy to organise my thoughts and experiences into coherent flows.. was thinking about the increasing silence that is going on inside my head. a change for once. instead of noise and heaviness all the time. which is a good thing. but i have that much lesser to blog about then haha. having said that, i have been looking up e-readers again, namely Kobo Vox, Amazon Kindle Fire (WHY NO SELL IN SINGAPORE?! >:[ ) and Nook Tablet. they are all priced at about $159 to $199. for someone who is all that tech-savvy, i do actually really wanna own a tablet. for one, i could spend those long hours of commuting, looking at something interesting, like reading an e-book or catching up on readings or just watching videos/shows. but, what is holding me back is that inaccessibility of e-books or online markets to Singapore, or just Asia in general. like if i wanna buy stuff online from Amazon,  i have to do like 5-10 steps of stuff and wait for at least a week before i can get my hands on my purchase. and therefore im still waiting for the stars to align so that one of these will bring their products to Singapore.

and i wanna have an e-reader so that i can read books instead of just the newspaper always. cause i think i should learn how to appreciate reading a book again. i know i have been saying that i need to read for the longest time, but it just isnt kicking off. and that makes me quite sad because i do miss the joy and habit of picking up a book from the library and diving into the world that awaits amongst those pages. so i have been looking at e-readers as well as best-selling book lists and book review websites like goodreads.com to look up recommended books. wish me luck on picking it up successfully this time round!

i guess i wont be filling in the details of my Thailand trip, too long too many things. anyway, saying it in words always doesnt do justice to the experience of being there itself. im sure we all know that frustrating feeling when someone asks "so how was _(insert holiday/ country of choice)_?" "oh, it was fun! very nice!" really? fun? nice? thats all? i always get irritated with myself or anyone for that matter when a 'fun' summarises that travel experience. but sometimes, it is difficult to express that out verbally. and most of the time, people dont really want to know about the details of your trip anyway. yeap, but i might do a photo post one day if i feel like it.

but i hope to make good on my upcoming trip to the land of..... k dramassss! yeay, Dae Han Min Gu! *clap clap clap clap clap* Korea! :D so exciting!! its like a pilgrimage of sorts i guess for korean popular culture fans. that is why along with the Hallyu wave there has been more and more people, especially those in their early 20s as well as older women, who are making trips to Seoul particularly. just take a look around that your friends' facebook photos. and this is why i feel it is pretty interesting to look at popular-culture influenced tourism. it is actually a legitimate academic area of interest, i know, i have downloaded academic articles regarding korean pop culture. haha. anyway, hope i would do a better job at blogging about the different places and things to do in Seoul than about my 5 weeks in Thailand. 19 more days to go! :)

btw, im now serving on every alternate Sundays with the childrens' ministry! im in Beloveds 1, or the 3 year olds :D they are like little angels sent down from heaven. they are not even my children or even remotely related to me, but i just feel so happy looking at their adorable faces. sure there are naughty kids, duh, and i havent interacted directly with them yet, but i believe when i do, the Lord will provide that favour needed to deal with them. it is so amazing to feel Jesus' love for me and through me as i serve. some kids will just come to you and put their adorable tiny hands on your lap or in your hand, or sit on your lap, and allow you to play and/or help them. and i feel like someone told me i won 2000$ in lottery or something. that they can be so vulnerable, so helpless, completing trusting you to help them. and that i can feel so much joy when they come to me and allow me to help them. that is how Daddy God is like with us as well. whether you are 5 or 50, the Lord still wants to go to Him whenever we have a problem, a worry or a care. He enjoys that i run to Him when im faced with something, when i let Him to hold my hand, when i run into His embrace. because He loves me and doesnt want to deal with life on my own :) it is only my second time serving but i feel so rich already whenever i serve for that few hours. i believe that it will get sweeter and better! :)

yep, thanks for listening to random updates so far. till then!