hey yo! coming to you from Mae Sod, the westernmost town in Thailand, right beside Myanmar-Thai border. just a quite update for you and a for a record for myself for what has happened over these past 2 weeks.
the initial part of Field Studies (FS) was shit hard. couldnt sugar coat it in anyway, plus all the getting to know you small talk just sucked the life out of me so much so that i really wanted to take the next flight back home.. but i guess, the hardest and shitiest part has past me, and the remaining journey ahead looks brighter and better. im growing in academic ways, such as learning to think out of the box and stand out in a good way amongst the crowd of projects/assignments; learning to step out and ask people questions/ do interviews, having a feeling scared like shit but still do it scared anyway attitude; learning to look, observe things that are happening around me through academic eyes. im also learning as a person to not be dependent on people's opinion on me, or what i think people's opinion of me is; im learning to have a Christ-esteem, one that is robust and strong, separate from the esteem of man.
the helpers said that the journey ahead up to Mae Hong Son will be really life-changing and i wouldnt come back the same way. i have already seen and felt and experienced so many things that i wouldnt have if i have never came for FS. not everything is pleasant and easy and fun, and it is so easy and convenient to want out, to tune out. but then i remind myself that hey i would never get to experience this ever again in my life, if im here, then i should get the most out of this, without losing my peace and sense of identity and who i am as a Jesus girl.
of course, i want to go home as soon as possible, but in the mean time, i will depend on Jesus' abundant supply of grace, favour, wisdom and boldness to take me through this battle. thank You Lord for keeping me as the apple of Your eye, hiding me in Your wings (Psalm 17:8). counting down to 16 June! :)
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