when Lady Red visits

(ps guys please turn your eyes away, if there are any guys who are reading. i warned you.)

you see, i have never bothered about my period arriving because for a long time i never had terrible aches or symptoms or anything like that. but god knows why this year or past 2 years, whenever its the time of the month, boy will i know it! is it a '20' thing? or am i growing into a fully developed woman? sounds funny. O,O damn it! i know from my science friend that having your period is not unnecessary, as other than for reproduction purposes, it is also for the release of estrogen, or female hormones, that well, make us more female..??? i think!

i didnt noticed it until i noticed it. or actually my sister confirmed it for me also. we have to live with each other's pms for about 2-3 days a month. >,< both of us are keeping a period log kind of thing in our handphones. (you can d/l the app for free! its actually for women who wanna get pregnant but whatever) and im hoping to find some sort of a trend so that i can have more control over this whole shenanigan. heres what i have taken mental notes of so far:

so before Lady Red arrives and makes her grand entrance, here are a list of signs and warnings. 2 weeks before: i'd be in a very good mood. happy and satisfied with life, grateful for the small things that i normally take for granted. then comes 1.5 weeks before: pimples galore! its like the Pacific Ring of Fire on my face, with the 'ring' being wherever my fringe falls onto my face and where i like to put my hands on my face. going into 1 week, i start to have a huge appetite. like 3 big meals or 4-5 small meals. 1am eat tomyam maggie mee, almost every month. i will feel slightly bad for eating so much. and then i will start to feel bloated and literally have a stomach expanded by 2-3 inches (because of the full uterus). my mood starts going haywire, my temper becomes extremely short, i have pimples all over my face, i feel insecure and ugly, i effectively become a monster.

and then Lady Red arrives in fashion. but thats not all. heavy flow. i have backaches for the first day, sometimes cramps like i just had this month. last month was water retention in my legs, making my pig legs even piggier. :( it literally expanded by like 1-inch diameter. either angry or depressed. i cannot walk properly, i cannot go out, i just feel like dying. then day 2, usually Lady Red has more mercy, mood slightly more in control ,though still heavy flow. thank goodness the whole ordeal is over by mid day 3. i become normal again, face clears, smaller stomach, better digestion.

my stepmum gave me this supplement called Evening Primrose Oil to regulate my hormones. geesh. i know it will be 'good for me', but its so troublesome! and the "its good for you" tactic doesnt work on me at all because i really dont care unless my life depends on it. so i need to go through the school of hard knocks before i learn to be disciplined and take care of my face and pop these pills. siggh. what did we do to deserve this?? >:( i would trade a lifetime (almost) of going through pms and the real deal itself with 2 years of NS, ANY FREAKIN DAY. NS pales in comparison with this bull that we women have to go through every month for 35 years!

but, yes but, i guess we are the 'privileged' ones who get to go through 9 months of pregnancy and childbirth. but think about it, being pregnant will just be PMS x 20 times! PMS on steriods! food cravings that must be satisfied, swollen feet for days and weeks, backaches because of the extra weight, bigger noses (why?!), the list goes on! the only reprise is that there wont be no flow for nine months. doesnt seem like a good tradeoff to me.

anybody going through the same thing as me? :( i hope im not earlier because i started my p earlier then everyone else. :( and no, i'm on my 4th day, so im not writing an irrational and emotional post. so WHY?