huh.

i'm officially unemployed today. and loving it. half-day mahjong tmr.

been felling quite queasy lately, not quite physically, although i've been having crazy hunger pangs in the middle of the day or night, but like queasy in the mind, you know? restlessness? uncertainty? confusion? probably all of the above la. guess its the nerves of starting school in a completely different envt, unsure of what i'll become, of who i'll be, of who/what may happen to me. i know i'm still excited like i had been since forever, but like scared too. :/

and still in line with the queasy thing, seemingly random yet significant thoughts keep floating and popping into mind, old friends, old memories, family, new fears and questions. all juggling for space amongst really important things like choosing my modules, deciding what to join in school, worrying about whether i'll find my place in nus, feeling like i need to accomplish something big, something different before uni life starts. clogging up what little space there is left up there. as you can see, i'm not quite coherent. and following a very addictive taiwanese drama series (YES I AM CONFESSING HERE. I AM SORRY.) now is not helping much.

i hope its just nerves.