"believe makes things real."

have you ever believed in something all your life, it being so part of your fabric, that you took it for granted? until one day, the seed of doubt becomes a little plant, and you didnt even realise it? you feel like someone pulled the ground apart from underneath your feet. and that sinking feeling right in the pit of your gut. its really scary.

i want to believe that i can reign over life. soar like an eagle, that i was made to be. but sometimes its so impossible. destruction, death, lost hope, pain, disappointment. most of the time, its like i'm looking in, instead of being in. like a passive spectator, instead of the sweating player. like part of the wallpaper.

yet, i know that i know, thats not what i'm supposed to be. i guess i've lost my sense of direction, somewhere along the way, buried under my books. believe, woman. simple yet profound. easy yet against the grain of human nature.

I'm a poor, I'm a rich

I'm a mountain, and a ditch

I'm a dagger, and a shield

I'm impatient, I'm a yield

And I wanna be free

Wind in my hair

Salt on my skin

Sun in the air

I have to feel love

Holding on me

I'll give you everything that you would ever need

I'm the fight and the dance

I am heartbreak and romance

The feather and the stone

I feel crowded and alone

And I wanna be free

Wind in my hair

Salt on my skin

Sun in the air

I have to feel love

Holding on me

I'll give you everything that you would ever need

And every once in a while

I wanna sit back and enjoy the view

I'm feeling my senses

But woman my life has been surrounded by fences

But I found some that I could see through

I could see through

And I wanna be free

Wind in my hair

Salt on my skin

Sun in the air

I have to feel love

Holding on me

I'll give you everything that you would ever need

Everything that you would ever need

Everything that you would ever need

Free- Gavin Degraw

"daughter, i have given you everything."

need to believe that all over again.