larger than life.

i'm counting down the days till terrible term two is OVER. not only because i'm going downunder after this term, that's already a given. no more CCA. no more SPA. no more crazy homework to rush out.

i believe i'm the only one feeling this way. i cant seem to click with people who have very different beliefs and ideals from me. like core beliefs. and it really causes alot of stress to me. and even condemnation, on bad days. i know, i should be sociable and speak to anyone worth speaking to. but without a common ground, i cannot, not will not, build anything more than an aquiantance relationship. i dont know..

the notion that you really feel alone especially when you're in a crowd, is so true. sometimes, its just so much easier to be by yourself. no need to bother about what people say, think, feel, do against you. you got so much more breathing space with yourself. isnt that good? i guess at times.

sometimes, i think life right now is so inane, mundane and lame. seriously. i read somewhere that the days of adolescene are characterised by superficiality and awkwardness. true, boy. everything seemd so haphazardly jumbled and dumped together in one huge mess. your friends, or what you make of them, your class, your cca, your studies, your mind even.

i need something, or someone, larger than life, to sweep me off my feet. not like a prince charming, that will come later, not ready now. just.. finding my best friend. or living my dreams. or being someone useful and important. or travelling. or being a rock star. that would be awesomeness man. the trivialities and micro-ness of everything now is sucking the life out of me.

i guess i gotta keep looking at THE one who is really larger than life. the man of steel and velvet.